Goodbye March

My social life in March was non-existent. Literally. I've only left the house to go grocery shopping and visit family on Easter. My creative life however, has flourished. I stumbled into March feeling unfulfilled and uninspired, and I'm leaving March with a return to illustrating, and a return to all night TCM marathons, which really do help believe it or not. I feel so incredibly inspired when I spend the entire night watching old black and white films and brainstorming. March has been refreshing for my mind, and I'm so much better for it. I made up my own illustration challenge to get back into the groove (more on that next week), and I've been feeling so much freer with my paintings. I've been brainstorming more ideas to make this blog as creative as I possibly can, and I'm thinking about revisiting different posts I did when I started this blog. When yachtsmaan began, it was very much a space to post miscellaneous photos from my day and vent. There wasn't as much structure, and there weren't as many "typical" blog posts. I've been thinking about ways I can seamlessly mix the two, and that will begin ASAP. I'm feeling excited about my creative outlets, about my art.

I hope March was good to you, and I hope April brings you amazing things.

On Videos

I used to make YouTube videos. I'm not sure if any of you read my blog when I did, but I did. I had a monthly, then bi-monthly video series, and I abandoned the project near the end of last Summer. There were a ton of intense personal things going on, and I just wasn't in the mood to try anything new with the videos, and they really did need something new. I love the format of the videos, and I love all the imperfections. I never set out to make YouTube videos that rivaled films. They were always meant to be a little sneak peak into different moments throughout the allotted time period, and that was that. However, after Summer ended and life was chaotic, I noticed that I was in the habit of filming the same scenes in each little video. Life is very monotonous sometimes (most of the time), and I realized that it was probably annoying. Though to be fair, I don't think anyone watched those videos.

I've been thinking about making videos again a lot lately, and though I still haven't brought myself to pick up the camera to film anything, it's still an idea floating around. Every blogger is doing YouTube now though, and my videos are nothing like those. I'm not sure what will happen with the channel, but I just can't get it off my mind these days.

Quality VS Quantity VS Affordability VS Consumption

I couldn't think of another title, and now it's comically long, or I'm just laughing because I'm extremely sleep deprived. It's probably that.

Okay. Three years in, and I officially need to have a stream of consciousness post about clothes. I love clothes a lot. You'll probably have noticed that if you're here from Polyvore, or you know, if you've been reading for a few weeks. I love clothes, but I'm at a point where my bank account and closet just can't keep up with my own personal taste. If you found me from Polyvore, you've probably picked up on that too. I've also been thinking about fast fashion a lot lately, and how it's unnecessarily wasteful. I'm not here to go on and on, or tell you what to do, know that, but it's something I can't stop thinking about.

I recently ordered a couple dresses, and they were pretty cheap. Like, really cheap. A large part of me knew that the pieces wouldn't be the best, but when they arrived, I was still so unbelievably disappointed. The fit wasn't right for one, and that's a completely different topic, but the quality was horrible. I honestly haven't worn either pieces yet, because the idea of putting them on my body makes me feel itchy and claustrophobic. It's just not happening. 

Over the last few years, I've had too many issues with clothes falling apart. I've got dresses with holes in them, and tops with frayed hems, and I know it's because I'm buying things that aren't meant to last. I'm not made of money, at all. I go shopping about once a year, because that's all I can afford to do, so when I do my "annual shop" (ew), I panic, and I feel like I have to buy as much as I can for the money I've got, and then the problem repeats itself. Most of the pressure stems from blogging, and wanting to keep up and express my personal style, because I really do love doing it, but I just don't understand how other bloggers keep it up.

Now, not everything I own is terrible. The pieces in the photos above are great quality. They're well made, and they can handle the wear and tear of being on my clumsy body. My point is that I think it's time to start phasing out the shit pieces, and deal with saving up for better quality. The price is the main problem, but I think it's time to test the expensive equals quality theory. I want to buy bigger names, because we all do, be real, but I'd really like to find independent designers to support as well. When I get into a position where I can actually do this, it'll be great. But it will take time.

Blog wise, this might mean I'll probably be doing fewer outfit posts, which is honestly upsetting. There are only so many combinations of the same pieces I can feature without hating myself. I've got to figure out something new to do. I keep it clear that I want to use my own photos for content most of the time, and just know that all photos are taken by me unless stated otherwise. It's a work in progress, but I think the personal style category of this blog will expand a little bit in a new direction soon.


NOTE: Today is the last day to enter the CaseApp Giveaway! (here)

I'm guilty of indulging in what I like to call "organized chaos." This means that I like to keep as much free space as possible, but I've always got stacks of books and illustrations (sometimes with my watercolor supplies on top, probably not the best idea) sitting around somewhere, and I'm a big fan of catchall dishes. They're full of random things, but I always know what's where. These are a few of my favorites, though I've admittedly got more packed away somewhere, and I'm sure I'll find an excuse to buy more. I'm looking at you Etsy.

In these photos you can note my pumpkin candle in March, my recently found high school class ring (tape and all, it's too big), and the patch project I did last year. I still can't decide what to do with those...

Cloudy Spring Days

Does the weather match my mood, or does my mood match the weather? I mean in these photos. My mood is fine now.

Y'all, I have a white bathroom rug, and that was the worst idea. I have fake red hair and a uterus that bleeds. White dresses however, I'm willing to risk it. As you can see, I figured out how to style the sheer dress, and watch me wear it every day until it's ruined. Because I can. Clothes are meant to be worn. I'm having to remind myself of that lately, because I've been living in the same leggings and t-shirts. I need to let go of saving clothes for different types of days. Except jeans. I can not sit comfortably in jeans all day. How does anyone do that? Anyway, I'd actually like to find a few more dresses without patterns to wear. I've found quite a few linen options on Etsy, and I'm in love. You can see my favorites here, if you're curious.

You can also see a peak of the new rock "rug" in a couple photos. I've never been so covered in dirt, but I think it turned out pretty nice. It's definitely easier to enjoy after the fact...

My Custom CaseApp + Giveaway

Spring's got me floating, and I'm using every opportunity I've got to talk about flowers. I've reached the I-want-a-greenhouse level of plant love. It's real. So of course I needed a phone case with flowers on it. The photo is of a mum that I took months ago, but I've recently learned that they're actually Summer and Fall flowers, so I've been nurturing Winter away from them. I'm pretty excited about that.

I was recently given the opportunity to design my own custom phone case on CaseApp, and I'm serious you guys, this was so much fun. I went a little overboard designing different options, and in the end, I decided something simple would work the best for me. I think it's fitting. They've got plenty of their own designs to choose from (so much marble, it's stunning), or you can create your own custom iPhone case, Samsung Galaxy case, or even a custom laptop skin, completely from scratch.

You can play around and create your own designs here. They've also been kind enough to give me a code to share with you guys for 20% off your own purchase until March 30, 2016: YACHTSMAAN20

The giveaway is for a code value of $40 to design your own case, and all you need to do is leave me a comment letting me what your favorite flower is, and don't forget to leave some way for me to contact you (i.e. Twitter, Instagram, blog link)! You have until Monday night (March 28) to enter. I'll be using a random generator to pick the winner.

I hope Wednesday is good to you.

*This post is sponsored by CaseApp. I'd like to thank the brand for giving me an opportunity to create content and give back to you all.

On Body Image

I don't bring up body image enough. That needs to change. As someone who's never had that "socially acceptable" body, and has always felt the pressure to be a certain way, it's something I want to be more open about.

I've been really down about my own body image lately. I've scrapped photos for posts and stuck to baggy layers. I've avoided mirrors. Facebook recommended someone I went to school with, and all I could think about for hours was this person making fun of my weight in the eighth grade. This was so long ago, but it's not always easy to get out of that mindset when you're already there. I like to think I've really come to like and appreciate my body for what it is. However, like we all do, I fall into a funk. Is my weight why this blog isn't more successful? Is it why I couldn't get that job three years ago? Is it why I have no social life? All of these questions are ridiculous. All of these questions have been floating around for the last couple of weeks.

So this is a reminder to myself, and to anyone else. Our bodies are good. Treat them well. The "ideal" body type doesn't actually exist. Your body is your body, and it's good.

I honestly couldn't think of a visual to properly convey this thought process. Tomorrow will be much more fun and upbeat, I promise.

Spring Runway Moodboard

Okay Monday. Behave.

The first day of Spring was yesterday (though my weekend felt so wonderfully like Fall), so naturally we need to talk about Spring runway details.

Though I absolutely adore dramatic fitted silhouettes (like this Balmain look), they just don't work for me when it's warm. No thanks. I can really appreciate the draped, carefree look found in quite a few of the collections for this season. The dress-over-jeans combination is one of my favorite go-to picks, and I highly recommend trying it out. I've become obsessed with pops of bright red, which is usually something I reserve for the holiday season. I just couldn't leave it behind this year. I feel very passionately about suits and sandals. The easy going shoe breaks down the stiffness of a suit, and it looks great on everyone. Suits are so versatile, so I really do mean everyone.

Of course I'm never here to tell you what to wear. I'm just here to share what I like. These looks embody everything else I'm looking forward to as well. Comfort, easy pieces for spontaneous outings, and dreamy pieces for wandering around your home (or home town, if it's that small). 

This was so difficult to narrow down, but I think these picks are a pretty good summary. You can see my entire Pinterest board here. There's a lot more. Possibly too much. Never too much.

*I do not own the images in this post. Photo credit: Vogue Runway

One Pair of Earrings, One Ear

I've been finding myself living sans earrings more often than not these days. They hurt when I try to sleep in them (which I always did before, but I'm a lot more prone to migraines now), and working from homes usually means not dressing up too much, which is a habit I need to break every once in awhile. On the up side however, a lack of earring routine means that I've been a lot more open to statement looks. Bigger earrings, more color, and my current favorite, a single pair worn in one ear (the other ear stays empty, of course), specifically, this gold pair (that I've already talked about before, sorry). Try it though. Good results.

Not Creative Enough + Monthly Playlists Are Back

I can't stop painting. That's not new news, but I feel like I'm in a weird head space when it comes to my art. It's not enough. I don't dislike it, but it's not enough. I need to do more. But what? I feel so far from the art world right now. I feel like I haven't been creative enough. I've got cabin fever, for sure. Okay, anyway...

If you've been reading this blog long enough, you may remember the monthly playlists I used to put together on Spotify and post here.* I got to where I didn't really like dedicating an entire post to the playlists, because I know they're not the most popular thing here, and I wanted to clear space for other things, so they stopped. However, I've recently been getting more into SoundCloud, and I've started the series again there! I'll link it here now, and my page will be linked at the top of the blog from now on. I don't think I can do that with Spotify, so SoundCloud is a great alternative. It's helped reignite the enjoyment of finding new music as well. If that's something you're interested in, you can check it out here. I'm still getting the hang of the website, but I've already got a playlist for March started.

I hope today is good to you.

Rain Rules the Land

It's been raining so much lately, so what's a blogger to do?

Talk about it.

This began as a normal outfit post, and quickly fell apart. But not really, because I still like the photos, and I still think this works. It rained so much last week (I think every day), and the weather definitely ruled my life. You can see here where I decided to try to take some photos outside, but what you actually can't see is the inch of standing water on the grass in between the other large puddles. Oh yeah, everything flooded. I had to scrap my original idea, and make something out of the what I had. Since I was already caught up on photos for the week, and I was really just wanting to take some in advance, I decided to cut myself some slack and enjoy the weather instead. I do find rainy days dreamy, and most of the rain here comes in Spring anyway, so it was a nice excuse to slow down. It was also a nice excuse to plan more things for this blog and get around to some household things I've been avoiding, i.e. replacing the shelf paper in my bathroom. What fun.

So here are a few of my favorite things to do when it's raining.

Open all the blinds

Listen to KEXP

Take photos

Read a lot

Embrace it

That's pretty much it. It's a fail-safe method. However, as the rain clears up (for now at least), I need to get busy again, and I have a few questions. Can any of you give me any advice about facial oils? I've been strongly considering oil, but I don't know if I'll need to use a moisturizing oil with cleansing oil. I'm pretty much clueless about this, but it's something I'm really interested in. After posting last week about having adult acne, my chin proceeded to break out into double digit spots, and it was so sore. I need a change in my beauty regimen, but I'm finding it so difficult to find information about oils.

I hope Tuesday is good to you.

Spring Flowers

I understand that it's snowing and freezing in many places around the world right now, but I live in Texas, and Spring came pretty early this year. I'm completely out of Winter now, and it's time to talk about flowers. One of my favorite topics. Everything is starting to bloom, trees included (they only finally lost their leaves in January), and it's gorgeous. Of course, new blooms also mean new additions, including daffodils, hyacinth, and calla lilies.

These calla lilies are my favorite right now. They're interesting and colorful, and I just want to add more in every empty bit of my space. Honestly, I'm so in love with the way these pink flowers look.

I also use fake flowers, as you can see. I really only have them because my mother was going to throw them out when I was helping her revamp her master bathroom, so I had to rescue them, because I definitely can't afford to keep fresh flowers around all the time (though I wish I could). I'm on a budget y'all. That should be the tag line for this blog. Anyway, I also like to include little sticks and bits I find here and there, and I've already done a little post about recycling bottles as vases here. I've decided to take my terracotta pots out of storage and let them shine, though they're empty for the time being. And of course, the pièce de résistance, my little wall-hanging succulent, my only surviving indoor plant, my little baby. I love it, and it's sitting gloriously for Spring.

Are Spring flowers your thing?

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