I need to vent. What is too personal? How far it too far? I constantly find myself wanting to talk about specific subjects that aren't exactly positive, but I don't. I think it's too personal, and I should keep said subjects to myself. This puzzles me though. I know that I'm not the only person in the world going through rough experiences and rough emotions. Obviously I'm not. So why aren't we all more open about things?
That is the most ambiguous thing I've ever written. It probably makes no sense. I've just been thinking a lot about writers block, and the reason it happens to me so much, and I think it's because I don't really write about my personal life. I don't even mean about family and friends, I mean about my own emotions and thoughts when I'm alone, because I'll be honest, I'm alone most of the time. I'm not around people very often, so that barrier that everyone puts up when they're in public (having social experiences, mind you) is almost always down for me. I'm not having those social experiences, so there's a whole different daily thought process going on (and sometimes it's just not happy) that I try to stay as far away from as possible when it comes to writing blog posts.
This isn't a poor me post at all. It is what it is. I just don't know if I should ever touch this subject again. It's so easy to write about impersonal things, and to try and keep the atmosphere fairly upbeat, but it's not real, is it? I've been trying to shift these posts a bit. I want to write more, but I can't expand for multiple paragraphs about one outfit or a few paintings. I'm usually a very visual person, and the paintings are meant to speak for themselves, but I'd still like to write more. Not even something necessarily directly related to the visual content. I just want to write. But about what?
Okay, to combat such a serious post, have a couple brighter, slightly abrasive paintings. It's a weird juxtaposition; thinking so seriously, yet wanting to create bright, colorful things. How to stay sane? I don't know. I hope you enjoy them anyway. I definitely enjoyed painting them.
*Edit: I actually wrote this post Saturday night, and since then, I've seen a few posts speaking about a similar topic. It must be a sign. Let's just be more open.