June is passing by so quickly, and most of the month has been set in suspense. Suspense in the best way mind you, but I've been very uneasy. Plants are a safe space for me, which is something teenage Amber would never have understood. I can spend an hour every evening trimming and pulling and watering, and it's constant. As long as I keep them alive, they're there. Hell, I keep these plants healthier than I keep myself, but it's worth it, because the time I spend tending to these plants is something that I use as a break. I'm not working or panicking, I'm just being.
They photograph pretty well too. It's only natural that I pay homage to the June foliage. It's resilient and vibrant, despite the suffocating Texas Summer heat, which is something I will never be, but can admire. My neighborhood is finally looking established and homey, and this little country town is so green.
My mother was telling me about seeing someone comment about a lack of foliage (groups of trees to be specific) in Texas, and I had to laugh. I never understood how climatically diverse this state was as a child, but it's so diverse. I was born in West Texas, and though I don't remember it as much anymore, I have passed through it on road trips, and it's so dry. The area I'm in now is full of rolling hills and clusters of trees, and if you go further east, the towns are so lush and full of wooded areas and massive trees in backyards. I've never been to the coast or further south, but I'll knock the former off my list within the next month or so, and I'm curious.
This probably seems like an overkill, but I'm still blown away sometimes by how much I love the area I live in. Every time I go to another nearby small town, the drive is lovely, and when I go further away, the drive back into town is a dream. When I moved back home, I thought the over-romanticized feelings about my hometown would go away after awhile, but it's been over two years now, and I'm just as pleased. I really don't know where I'll go from here.
I think I'm using my hometown as a comfort blanket. At least I've got these plants.