Goodbye August








I keep saying that every month has flown by, but it's true. I don't know where this year has gone.

August was primarily a month of planning. I've been coming up with post ideas for the rest of the year, and I've been brainstorming different ideas and coming up with to-do lists for the impending holiday season. I've been pretty excited about it, if that wasn't obvious. I've kind of intentionally let the month get away from me. I've been moody and hormonal, and I've isolated myself a little bit, because I never really know what to do with myself in August. But enough about that. September is tomorrow, and it's time for Autumn, even if it's unofficial until the 22nd. It's my favorite time of the year, finally, and I've just got to figure out how to ring it in... 


Chatty


I'm falling into another one of those holes where I don't even want to paint, let alone posts things I've painted because I feel so inferior. I know it's just hormones, but MAN, I'm not feeling anything. I've seen so many nice illustrations and paintings in the last week, and they're all so good, and I should just stop. I won't, but the insecurity this week is real, and where blogging is concerned as well. 

I've decided that I will do a full post on my personal PMS and hormone issues, and what a typical cycle is like for me, but it'll be awhile before it happens. I still have a few weeks until I go to see a new doctor, and I don't know for sure what will happen with that, but maybe I'll get to it in October. I'm not sure if it'll be one post or a series, but I'm doing it. I think reading about other experiences with periods and PMS is interesting and informative, so I want to contribute.

On the other hand, I'm actually trying to not be in such a poor mood. I'm not feeling too festive anymore, which is fine, there's still most of September to get prepared, but I'm trying to find inspiration in other things. I'm watching a lot of vlogs from Winter (this one right now), and I'm actively trying to stay busy. I'm day dreaming about Paris again, but if it works, it works. And I think it's working. It is at least while I'm writing this, and I've been pretty productive. I'm finding new music and adding to my yearly playlist. I'm a hormonal wreck, but everything's going to be fine, you know?


Why My Hair Is Weird






I've gotten pretty lazy about my hair routine lately, and I have a few excuses. I'm growing my hair out from a bob, and it's at an awkward stage right now. It's too hot for heat tools, so I usually throw it in a bun or braid it straight out of the shower. I haven't colored it in months, because I've had a lot going on, and no patience to touch up the color, though to be perfectly honest, I don't hate how my natural color looks with the orange, and I have no current plans to cover it up. I thought I should address it though, for myself more than anything. This is why I have ridiculous hair right now. It's healthy though, so that's what counts. I'm growing attached to the look as well, and I keep including it in illustrations. I might be vain. What blogger isn't?


The Most Comfortable Summer Clothes & I'm So Hormonal














Oh my god, this week!

Monday was spent in a puddle of self doubt, and wondering why I'm doing what I'm doing, and thinking I should give up on everything. It ended on a higher note, thankfully. I ran on little sleep Tuesday, and dealt with an injured dog, excessive blood, a panic attack, loud, house shaking roadwork right outside my front door, and the annual vet visit for all three dogs. It was insane, and I was wrecked, but it ended on a high note as well. Wednesday was a bit more on track however, and I've started working on September's posts. 

I realized early on that I'm very hormonal this week. I've been nauseous and weepy, and not for the first time, I'm thinking about writing a series on this blog about hormones. I've started PMSing, and it's hell, and I've cried so much, just because everything is a little unbalanced. It's something that has only gotten worse over time, and I've got a doctor's appointment lined up for September, so that might affect my decision. I think it could be interesting, but I'm not sure if anyone else would think so. Not enough people talk about hormones in a serious (or at least semi-serious) way when it comes to periods and PMS. Watch this space, I guess.

Anyway, this white on white outfit has ended up my Summer weekend uniform. My skin has been so sensitive this year that loose layers are a must when it's hot out. However, this is officially the last Summer look of the year. I'm indulging in Autumnal looks from September on!


Pink Homes


I've been heavily inspired by pink homes this year. Primarily from photos I've seen online, but I have seen a handful of brightly painted homes in person in the last month or so. I think I've decided that my future house has to have a pastel pink exterior. Dark interior walls for sure, but a pink exterior to fool everyone. Above is a building that doesn't really exist, but I suppose it could, somewhere. I was watching Breakfast at Tiffany's while painting this, and I'd watched a few other movies from the same decade earlier in the week, so the rest of the color scheme is very much inspired by films from the sixties. It's a good decade for color. I've also recently uncovered more family photos from the sixties, and they're goals. So good. 


On Hoarding Mugs & Putting Travel Aspirations On Hold









Both of these topics were thinking points over the weekend, so I'm just going to throw them together here. Somehow they coincide anyway.

I'm a mug hoarder. Seriously. I have a bad habit of buying them when I don't need them, and people who know me know this, and they buy me more mugs, and I have so many mugs. This is far from a complaint, believe me. I love my mugs. I just have a ton. These six are just a drop in the bucket/the ones that were easier to get to/the ones that were clean. When I began collecting mugs, I was almost out of high school, and I was planning on traveling to so many places, and the mug thing became an idea. I have mugs from almost every state in the US that I've been in, sans California and Oklahoma. I haven't added to that part of my collection in awhile though.

I'd planned on going north, and getting a passport immediately, and traveling all over Europe, and venturing to Canada on weekends. Instead, I made a road trip I'd made six times previously, and spent some time in Nevada. I did some exploring there, and it was nice, and refreshing, but I became homesick. I realized how much I appreciated home as a concept, and home as the state I was born and raised in. I moved back nearly three years ago, and I haven't traveled since. 

I've always been a bit mystified by Europe. The nature and landmarks, and history that's older than the country I live in. I'd still love to explore as much of it as possible, but it's not something that's on the cards for me now. I don't think it will be for awhile either. My mother came across a photo over the weekend, and it was a gorgeous shot of a bridge and a waterfall, and we're both suckers for that sort of thing. I assumed it was taken somewhere in Europe, and I spent half an hour trying to find the photo on Google, and I was shocked when I did. It was a photo of Multnomah Falls in Oregon, and I was in love. It was stunning, and I don't need a passport to see it in person. This sparked a whole list of places in America that I'd love to visit, and my travel inspiration is somewhat fueled again. The state mug collection will grow again one day.


The Oversized T-Shirt









Hello Monday. These photos accurately sum me up right now. I feel a bit worn out, and I just want to be comfortable. Today will include bathing one of the dogs, cutting the hair of another, mailing a card, and sweeping the house. I've got to scan a few illustrations as well. That's not everything, of course, but I'm primarily writing this paragraph as a reminder to myself, a to-do list if you will. Also, I started drinking coffee again, and suddenly caffeine actually has an effect on me, and I'm pretty damn grateful for it. Bring me coffee and bring it on Monday.

This is actually a t-shirt dress, that was bought to wear like a dress. I wore it as a dress in public (kind of) once, and I never will again. T-shirt dresses aren't my thing. Mini-dresses? Of course, but not this. It looks more so like an oversized shirt, and I'll gladly wear it as one. How cozy. How perfect for those bloated period days when you can't even button your jeans (aka this day). Also please excuse the wet hair, but also, I don't really care about it. My hair is in a weird state, and you'll probably see it wet again. I'm waiting for it to grow. And I apologize for any dog hair you may see. It's always the worst around the end of Summer. Just, dogs, you know?


Currently


I'm back with only a three month gap in between "Currently" posts this time. I think that's the best I've done this year. Anyway, this is what I've been up to:

Reading: When my mother finally cleaned out my younger brother's old bedroom to transform it into her new office, she found a stack of required reading books and text books, and I snagged Fever 1973  by Laurie Halse Anderson before she could throw it out. It's a book that I feel like everyone read in school but me, and as I'm writing this post, I realize that I haven't finished it yet. I started it when I was out of town last month, but there was a lot going on, and I never picked it back up. I need to do that. It's a pretty quick read anyway. I also ordered Persuasion by Jane Austen last month, and I'm excited to dig into that. I was never really one for classics for years until I was seventeen (which I'm pretty embarrassed about, and child Amber would be ashamed), and since then, I've been trying to play catch up. I'm currently trying to fill my collection with Jane Austen. 

Watching: I started re-watching Gilmore Girls earlier this year, and I'm finally finishing the last season. I wanted it to be fresh in my mind for the return in November. I still love it so much (who doesn't). I've also settled on the fact that I've used this year to watch predominately old films, and it's probably going to stay that way for awhile. I don't know what I'd do without Turner Classic Movies (not sponsored, I wish).

Doing: I've been coming up with Autumnal post ideas like crazy, and I've started browsing for cheap fillers, because I'm on a budget, and dollar stores can be surprising. I had to hold both myself and my mother back from stocking up on candy corn however, which was heartbreaking, but I really need to hold back as much as possible until September 22. I've also started thinking about Christmas plans, so whoops, but also you can never be too prepared. I've been keeping busy and painting and taking photos, and I'm pretty happy about it. I've designated myself as the unofficial family photographer, so I follow everyone around with my camera, and they hate me for it, but they'll thank me in ten years.

Loving: The weather has been doing a strange Autumnal thing, and this is Texas, so it's very uncommon. I'm not complaining though, and I hope I didn't just jinx it. Belle has been extra clingy this week, and it's so sweet. She's attached to my side as I write this. I hope I didn't jinx that either. I've been feeling a lot lately, and I've finally realized that it's okay, and I honestly would rather be a sappy person who cries a lot and feels a lot than someone who doesn't feel much as all, and I've been the latter for so long. It's a welcome change, I just have to keep tissues near at all time. Embrace your feelings y'all. 

What have you been up to?


A Makeup Nuance Tries Green Concealer (& Kind Of Fails)









I have to admit that this isn't the first time I've used green concealer. It's maybe the fifth. Maybe. I haven't used it much at all, because I still don't wear makeup every day, but I am a believer. Though I can't tell if my face is too green in these photos or if I'm just so pale (which I am), green concealer has stolen my heart. Just know that this is the worst face I've done in awhile, and I don't think I put enough skin toned product on over. I usually don't look so sick.

Should I have re-shot the photos for this post? Probably, but the point of this little "makeup nuance" series is to show that I really, really don't know what I'm doing. It's a risk every time I try to put makeup on my face, and if I fail, it's fine. No worry. Have fun with it, you know?


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