Would You Ever Try Free Bleeding

I'd heard of free bleeding before, ages ago, and it was something that was being celebrated and positively discussed. I wanted to do a little bit of research before writing this, and I stumbled across multiple articles about a Reddit hoax and the idea of free bleeding being used to mock women. Fuck that. Let's pretend that whole mess doesn't exist.

Free bleeding is fascinating to me. If you didn't know, it's when someone forgoes menstrual products when on their period. To me, it promotes period and environmental positivity. I've adopted it, but only partially. You have to understand that I think of my period as something to be cherished and held dear. I'm 22. I'm practically a kid still, but I have to think about my future where my reproductive system is concerned. I have a close family history of conception struggles, and that's something I'm afraid of experiencing myself.

I wrote about my experience with birth control awhile ago, and my period is only just starting to resemble what it was pre-pill. That means I spent six months panicking over extremely light periods. Now that I'm not as worried about it, I want to celebrate my cycle even more. I'm happy that my period starts every month. It's a sign that I'm healthy. It represents a distant future.

During the six month light cycle period (for lack of a better word), I stopped bothering with pads (I'm a pad girl, sorry 'bout it). There wasn't really a point, because there wasn't enough blood to warrant wasting a product that contributes to my trash output and cash throwaway. That's another important point. I'm a big fan of anything that helps me produce less garbage and save money.

My first heavier period this year was at the end of March, and it was a shock. I'd been going pad-less, and I suddenly had a pair of blood soaked underwear to deal with. Luckily, I'd just just woken up, and had no pants to worry about. Anyway, I actually had to pause for a moment, because I wasn't sure if I even wanted to use a pad. The underwear were already ruined, right?

I caved. I caved, wore a pad, and felt uncomfortable about it for the rest of the day. 

This really got me thinking about free bleeding, and the possibility of easing myself into the habit somehow. I work from home, so I don't have to worry about public spaces if I don't want to. There's really no reason I shouldn't give it a go. I'm just not sure.

For now, I'm just not wearing anything when the cycle is light, ie as I write this post. 

I want other opinions though. What do you think about free bleeding? Have you heard of it before? Would you try it?

I've Fallen out of Love with Illustrating People

I've fallen out of love with illustrating human figures, and that's okay. 

If you've followed the blog long enough, you'll know that I used to primarily illustrate people. Over time, I branched out to other subjects, but my love for the former has faded. I've fallen into the habit of only drawing self portraits at most, but that's become boring. I finally realized that my heart isn't into human subjects anymore, so I'm happily moving on.

I've been painting abstract (I hate that word?) most of all lately, and it's incredibly fulfilling. I created a large piece that hangs over my bed, and I've got a good handful of WIPs waiting to be completed. It's almost like I'm starting a new artistic chapter.


Cereal Milk

I'm living on a strange schedule right now. There's no real reason for this, and I can't really be bothered to correct myself. It's after two in the morning as I write this, and I'll probably be up for hours more. I've grown fond of sunrises, and I've seen almost all of them in the last week, at least.

My jeans are finally starting to fit again. I haven't lost near as much weight as I'd hoped in a six week period, and I only had the idea that my antidepressant could be a factor a few hours ago. I haven't done my research though, so I'm not sure. Anyway, I still can't button them up, but that's nothing that can't be covered for the sake of blog photos.

Honestly, if someone told me I'd be admitting all of this publicly a year ago, I wouldn't have believed them. What am I doing?

I'm seeing more sunrises, and I'm treating more mornings with as much grace as I can muster. I've actually eaten cereal the last couple days, and that hasn't happened in ages. Not exactly healthy, but I digress. I've been able to enjoy more dewy foliage and rolling gray clouds. I'm still waiting on those Spring showers. Those are my favorite part of the season.

I'm not quite enjoying the return of bugs and toads however. Belle tried to eat something Sunday night and spent the following 24 hours with a swollen face. She's fourteen and she does this every year. That's my girl. She loves a good morning.

Are you a morning person?

Spring Lingerie Edit

I took a bit of time off last week when PMS got the best of me, but I'm back, inspired, and with an actual full week of posts. I swear, there's not a lot better than when the PMS fog lifts and I can get my mind and motivation right again.

It's no secret that I've got a lingerie obsession, and I hope some of you do as well. I couldn't resist creating an edit from my current three favorite lingerie sources: For Love & Lemons, Lonely, and Madewell. I think all of these pieces are super sweet, and dreamy enough for lounging in on a Spring morning. If you owned these pieces, why would you ever bother getting dressed until the last minute?

I've become a bit exhausted with a completely basic colored lingerie collection, and I've seen the colorful light. The timing is coincidental. At least, I think it is. Obviously neutrals are still lovely to have around, but how could anyone resist a bright yellow set? You tell me.

See anything you like?

Finally Creating an Atmosphere

I have been a bit of a brat when it comes to my living situation. It is not ideal. I live with my parents. I moved back in with them in 2014, and I've spent nearly three years refusing to make my space "mine," because I so desperately want a place of my own. I'm exhausted from that though, and as I don't know when I'll actually be able to move out anyway, I thought it was a good time for a change. A more solid change; semi-permanent, if you will.

I actually fully moved in is what I'm getting at.

The bed frame I used as a teenager is finally out of my parents' attic, my furniture has been rearranged, and my things are actually hanging on the three main walls. I've been really working on creating a homey atmosphere. I'm still changing little details on an almost daily basis, but the impact is heavy. I don't feel like I've set up camp in someone's spare room anymore, though that is still technically what I'm doing. I'm not dwelling on that.

I've got my little plants growing, and candle holders/hangers spread around. I've made way better use of my closet storage thanks to the new found bonus storage under the bed. The space is actually inviting now, and not a complete embarrassment.

No matter what your living situation is, take the time to make it your own. Having somewhere you feel comfortable in and inspired by is something incredibly important, and I'm kicking myself for being so stubborn for three years. Just do it. It's another aspect of focusing on the moment really. I know I need more of that anyway. Do you?

An Average Look, Justifications, and Clarifications

I hope everyone had a lovely Sunday and a lovely Easter.

I keep mentioning that I've been having serious re-thinking sessions about this blog, and I stand by those mentions. It's still happening. I kind of don't have a choice at this point.

I feel a bit artistically starved from falling into the routine of keeping my posts too structured, and only creating content for a pre-planned topic that my heart isn't always as into when it comes time to post about said topic.

Outfit posts stress me out like no other. Don't get me wrong, I love posting them, and I love seeing others post them. I have a deep, personal love for personal style and the fashion industry, but I don't have the means to support that love. I get a lot of my "style" energy out through Polyvore, which is fine, but I post a lot of the same pieces over and over again on the blog. It's almost like a capsule wardrobe, but that's not my intention.

Buying new pieces only happens a couple times a year, at most. My income is extremely low (read: please hire me), and I'm sick of buying things that are horrible quality. I've finally decided to bite the bullet and save for quality pieces. I'm all about this, but it'll take awhile until I get there. I've got to do research and save money, and learn about what brands overcharge for their products, etc. Until I can add to my wardrobe, I'll be styling the same pieces different ways, and I hope you won't become too bored with that. If you want to see me style new pieces, just check Polyvore. I don't have to shell out for that at least. I swear this isn't sponsored by Polyvore. I wish.

I'm basically trying to justify my repeat looks and clarify my want/need for more creativity and spontaneity. Does any of this make sense? Eh. Everything's a mess, just go with it.

I hope you all have a wonderful new week.

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