I Haven't Shown My Face in Three Weeks

I haven't shown my face here in three weeks. Almost on the dot, I think. 

I've been incredibly insecure. I'm not sure why, but my body and my mental state are going through some changes, and I hope that's all that's going on. I'm on a higher dosage anti-depressant now, so let's all just see where that goes. 

I think seasonal depression is settling in now as well. I've been watching/listening to Halloween and Christmas themed things, and I'm honestly planning out my Summer in hopes that it passes quickly. This is probably an extremely unpopular opinion, but I am not a Summer person. Hence pretending I can still get away with wearing a sweater. I can't. It looks nice though.

Anyway, this is why I haven't shown my face. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I don't know if I should just do more posts without myself as the subject, or if I should just suck it up. 

I'm sure this happens to so many bloggers. Posting photos of yourself isn't always an easy thing to do. Fellow bloggers, what do you do when you're feeling insecure? Let's chat.

Reusing Tiny Liquor Bottles

I hope you all had a lovely weekend/three day weekend/Memorial Day/bank holiday/whatever it was to you. You get what I mean. 

I myself spent a lot of time thinking about Halloween, I won't lie. I watched a Halloween cartoon. I made an executive hair decision. I sat outside in the rain and drank a lot of iced coffee. I cleaned my bathroom and spent an entire hour looking at gift possibilities for my niece. She turns one in July, holy cow.

I swooned over Gucci.

It was a relaxing weekend overall, and I feel a lot more calm about what I'm doing right now. I think my personal space is affecting me as well, in the best way. I'm loving the gallery wall - that is nearly finished by the way. I want to hang some flowers to dry, but it'll take awhile for this lady on a budget. 

I'm also loving my dresser top display of faux flowers in wine bottles. You can peek that here. I saved this little lemon liquor bottle (gifted from my mom, and it didn't last long), to use as a bud vase. I think tiny vessels like this are great for everyone. It's perfect for finding fallen blooms or picking the perfect flower from its stem (but don't forget to thank the plant!). 

My rose bush is currently about to bloom all over again, so the few remaining flowers were reaching the end of their cycle. However, a slightly wilted rose is better than no rose, don't you think?

When Insecurity Rears Its Head

I've got to be honest here. I had an outfit post planned for today. I had given myself an entire week and a half to take the photos. The day I finally attempted to (Tuesday), I couldn't bring myself to fully step in front of the camera. I'm on my period, I'm incredibly bloated, and I'm incredibly insecure about my body again.

I think there are a few reasons behind this. I've put on too much weight in the last year, and I've become extremely aware of it. That fact is made more apparent by the nearly-Summer heat, and the fact that I can't wear a simple sundress because my thighs rub together. Things like that, you know?

Anyway, I couldn't bring myself to step in front of a camera this week, but I took these photos instead. If you are feeling insecure right now, own it. Own it, indulge in some self care, and build yourself back up. That's what I'll be doing.

From Polyvore

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I guess I'm having a trouser moment?

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The Easiest Spicy Roasted Chickpeas

We're on a roasted chickpea kick over here. I have made these quite a few times over the last month. They're a perfect quick snack to prepare, and they pack a punch without being too unhealthy. I couldn't not share the recipe.

All you need is: 
  • 1 can of garbanzo beans/chickpeas
  • Cayenne pepper
  • Garlic salt
  • Olive oil
Pre-heat your oven to 450F. Make sure to drain, rinse, and blot-dry the chickpeas. Pour the chickpeas into a bowl. Drizzle a light amount of olive oil over the chickpeas, and season liberally. Spice and garlic are really big in this household, so I use quite a bit. It's really all up to taste. 

When you've seasoned and mixed the chickpeas well, spread them out well on a baking sheet and bake for 25-35 minutes. Make sure you check on them throughout the last ten minutes to prevent burning. Every oven is different. I swear, after you make them once, it's a piece of cake every other time.

Let me know if you try these out!

Updated Bedroom Details

Last month I posted about creating an atmosphere after living in this space for three years, because better late than never, right? Well, the space is coming along nicely. 

I've pulled out my faux flowers and wine bottles to set out on my dresser. I've also started a collection of hanging real flowers and bits of trees to dry among the fake. I've adopted three floral prints that once belonged to my great grandparents, and they fit along my gallery wall flawlessly. 

The small plants died again, so I don't have any of those scattered around anymore, but the flowers and plants outside are flourishing and spreading, so I'm not too upset about it.

Of course, there are still a few things yet to be done. I patched holes from nails and tacks weeks ago, and I still have yet to paint over them. I'm in the process of making bunting for the window, and one of my cabinets needs to be rearranged.

There's such a strong effect already. I finally have a space to exist, and I can focus more on making things happen now, instead of trying to stay as packed up and panicking because I haven't moved on. Dwelling on the negative isn't good for anyone.

Edit: From My Etsy Favorites

I've fallen into an Etsy hole again. I initially went to look for supplies for things, and ended up finding a good handful of items I think I need, including the seven listed and linked above. Most of the pieces lean towards the cute/statement piece side of things, and the sugar scrub just sounds interesting.

On another note, I've had an incredibly scatterbrained week. I've lost track of time like no other, I've only been falling asleep in the afternoons, and yesterday I might have mistaken the word "holiday" to mean the November-December festive season, instead of holiday as in a Summer vacation. This was in an email. I am losing it y'all.

I've also been thinking about the festive Holiday season a lot lately. That's my excuse. 

Anyway, have you found any neat products on Etsy recently?


As promised; the full unnamed pink painting (plus detail shots)!

Notes from My Weekend

Saturday: I spent my late night hours baking salt dough for a couple of upcoming projects. It was a frustrating process, but I ended up a lot more resourceful than I thought I would be when I started the process. I went on a six a.m. grocery run, which was wonderful. There were only three or so other shoppers, and the Spring heat was far from creeping up so early.

Y'all know me though, I can't let everything run smoothly. I was having extreme PMS in the form of lightheadedness and exhaustion. I slept through midday, and woke up in the evening in time to make dinner, and take another nap. I lived Saturday to the fullest. I woke up to the moon, and spent a little bit of time outside under her. On to technical Sunday...

Sunday: I barely slept on Sunday, and I'm not sure how that even happened. Actually, I just couldn't sleep, that's how. At one point in the morning (after sunrise), I found myself missing Autumn something fierce. I threw together pumpkin spice cookie dough, watched one of my favorite Halloween cartoons, and promptly fell asleep for an hour. I think Halloween was the trick.

Early afternoon was spent with family. I went with my parents to visit my grandfather in the hospital, and then we ended up leaving the hospital with my grandmother to have a massive, glorious lunch. I think it was Mother's Day done right in the end. Afterwards, I floated through a car wash, bought some incense, and went home to nap again. I baked the pumpkin cookies late in the evening, and ate my lunch leftovers. I had Foolish by Ashanti stuck in my head the entire day. It's in my head as I type this. Worth noting. 

What did you do this weekend?

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