Unsatisfying Lucid Dreaming



I had my first truly self aware lucid dreaming experience this week. I've had similar experiences that were more on the nightmare-into-sleep-paralysis side, but this was my first completely normal (ish) moment of becoming aware that I'm in a dream.

It starts out as some days do - the dogs want out at five in the morning. I get up and take them to the back yard. My dad is up and in the kitchen getting breakfast before work. This is red flag one. He doesn't work on Monday, but I miss this one. I think I walk back to my bedroom for something, probably glasses, and walk back to the door. This is where I realize I'm in a dream. We have storm doors, and through the back storm door, I see Belle and Romeo, and a tiny tornado of a dog running around with them.

If you're new to this space, I've had three dogs. The baby of the bunch (still an old lady though) passed away from cancer earlier this year. When I saw Izzy running around, I suddenly said to myself, "Oh my God, this is a dream." Except I didn't want to be lucid dreaming, because like I mentioned, any previous near-experience with lucid dreaming has lead to.terrifying sleep paralysis. 

I immediately began to scream and run and break things - anything that might've made me wake up before the paranoia and shadows began to creep in. Eventually I did wake up, but I wasn't satisfied. I immediately wanted to go back into the dream to see all three of my dogs playing together again. I was sad, and I'm still pretty sad about it. Maybe one day it'll happen again, and I'll be able to make the most of it.


On a completely unrelated note; I'm trying to figure out how to comfortably do outfit posts. This was an experiment and a maybe. I don't know.

Today I've got to buckle down and schedule posts on various platforms and get some cleaning done. Tomorrow will be spent in the kitchen, baking pies and preparing hors d'oeuvres for Thanksgiving. Food prep is key y'all. Do some stuff in advance and save yourself the day of.


6 comments:

  1. Oh welcome to the club haha! Lucid dreaming is weird but kind of okey when you've done it a few times. Don't know in how many nightmares I've told myself to wake up and saved myself from more horror hahah. Hope you're having a lovely week Amber! Xx

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    1. Ha! This experience was absolute trash. Thank you Mia, I hope you are as well!

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  2. These kind of dreams are weird! I don't know if you can categorise this (I mean me, not your experience!) as lucid dreaming but when I do I'm not aware that I am dreaming, but I have a moment when I realise I can change what's before me. Like if I'm being chased and I start to get tired. I'll stop but then say no, I can keep running and I do. I'm no longer tired. Or I am walking down the beach but then I'll suddenly decide to go to Paris and I'm there. It's hard to explain but that is probably as close to lucid dreaming as I've gotten. I don't know how I'd feel in that situation. I don't think it would terrify me. I'm more scared of dreams that you think you've woken up in bed, only to feel an invisible force get on top of you and start choking you. But you actually feel it. You feel that weight and the pressure around your chest and neck. Those are truly scary for me.

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    1. I think that's lucid dreaming too! I don't know a whole lot about the subject, but I think it counts if you know you can change things. Those dreams sound like fun. The last part of your comment has happened to me a few times before, which is why I found my lucid dreaming experience was so unnerving. Idk man, dreams are weird.

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  3. Well this was a very interesting read! I can't quite imagine what a lucid dream must feel like, though I'd imagine... surreal?! I have very realistic dreams at times, to the extent of believing tiny things to be true for months and months until someone prompts me to realise that... wait.. that never actually happened. Haha! Anyway, hope you're able to make the most out of your next dream experience Amber :)

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    1. Surreal is the perfect word to describe it! I've had a few of those as well. Dreams that I thought were real, that is. Thanks Gabrielle!

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